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Today is the day. Once so highly anticipated turned much dreaded. Today had been McOlsen's expected due date. I have thought of this day with much sorrow ever since that horrible morning in August. Those that were expecting babies the same time as me have started having their babies. Is it possible to be so truly heartbroken and yet so blessed at one time? I am the mom of the most precious angel ever. My son had the privilege of meeting his Savior 100% pure and sinless. He will never know the hurts and pains of this world. And yet the earthly side of me wants him here. To know the fun he would have had with his siblings. To learn to swim or ride a bike. To eat his first birthday cake and lick an ice cream cone. I would have loved to know him and his personality. To hear his laugh and even his cry. My hope after today is that I can move towards the time when I feel much more blessed and a lot less hurt. There's no footprint too small to not leave an imprint on this earth.........
I must admit. I really struggled this Thanksgiving. How are you supposed to think about what you have to be thankful for when your just trying to keep your head afloat the sea of grief? If it were up to me, we would have done away with November through January this year. Since it's not up to me, I had to find a smile once again and carry on.We decided circumstances as they are, we needed a break from the norm this year. My parent's came up Thanksgiving day. We really enjoyed the day together. The guys even got in on the cooking action by frying our turkey. It was relaxed and so nice to spend the day with the ones we love the most. It was also mom and dad's anniversary! Us crazy people who get married around holidays!!
Then it was time to get a plan of action for our black Friday shopping. Should it really be called that since we started at 10pm on Thursday? Anyway, we had a blast laughing at people. It was just pure crazy and bizarre what people were willing to give their life for. I'm talking about cheap towels that more than likely disintegrated with one washing. Seriously! They would have taken you down if you even thought of swiping one. We even waited in a huge line outside Target, not really needing anything. Just in it for the fun. The best part was Starbucks at 12:30 am and the fun times spent with my mom! After a couple more stops we were headed to bed. We were a little sad though because breakfast at chick-fil-a sounded so good and so well deserved but they didn't open for a couple more hours.
That night we headed to the Christmas Train at Dry Gulch. Such a great way to start the Christmas season. The best weather we have ever had there and so much fun that mom and dad went with us. I'm not sure my words can do it justice but it is an old western town. People are dressed up in costume. Some are caroling, others are working at the train depot, restaurants, others even open every door for you. You can go on a wagon or stage coach ride, shop in stores, eat tons of food, ride go carts and bumpers cars, a carousel. I could go on and on. It's a blast and great family fun.Then we were off for the first family Christmas of the season on Saturday and Sunday. We really had a great time with family and what was much dreaded turned into such a great few days.
Last month I randomly purchased a book in the airport. It was called 52 Things Children Need From Their Mother by Angela Thomas. Now I am not a reader whatsoever but I read this book in one day. Some of the things I already do but also gave me some really great ideas.Angela talks about making your home comfortable for your family and for friends that may come over. This has kind of been my mission in the past but now has become very important to me. Thought I would share some of the things I like to do.* I like my house to be clean and orderly. I truly believe that you are much more comfortable in clean than filth and chaos. I am not talking perfection here but we aren't falling over stuff laying everywhere.* On days I am home, I like to have a special snack waiting for the kids when they get home from school. When it's cold I like to have something fresh out of the oven. I can still remember getting home from school back in the day and smelling fresh bread baking. A favorite treat at our house is a cup of hot chocolate.*I try to remember to turn the outside and garage lights on before my husband gets home. It seem much more inviting and reminds you that you're arrival is being anticipated.*When it gets dark outside, I like to turn lamps on in the bedrooms and around the house. It gives the house that cozy feel.*I turn the scentsy on and make the house smell good and inviting.*Nothing says comfort better than a fire going in the fireplace...Ahh!*I like to turn the heaters on in the bathrooms (when I can remember) in the winter before bath time. Much better to get out of the bath into a warm bathroom.*A new one I learned from the book was to turn the beds down so that when the kids are ready for bed, all they have to do is slide in.They are little things but to me the little things mean the most. I want my family to want to be home and know that whatever the world has thrown at them that day, they can find peace, rest, and love here.